Right, I'll make use of this thread now it's here.
A lot of you have been following my progress (or lack of) with a girl called Donna in the 'Topic with no real Subject' thread but if not, here's a very brief recap.
A lad I used to work with ages ago (Ian) is now living with a girl called Amanda. Donna is her sister and spotted me on Ian's Facebook friends list. She added me, we talked a lot, swapped numbers and agreed to meet up. That was around 9 weeks ago I think.
We met up, watched a film and hung out for the evening. It was weird how we just clicked and got on so well, talking and laughing constantly.
The night ended with a hug and an agreement to do it again.
Like a tw*t, it wasn't long before I showed my hand and told her how I felt about her.
Donna's response was that she saw me as a 'friend'. I was gutted.
Since then, we've met up a few times, she's spent a full weekend with me and even slept in the same bed as me. Still, we're 'friends'.
It seems insane that we can't be more because we are perfect together in so many ways. It's pretty impossible coming back from 'friend' though and it eats away at me daily, I can't shake her from my head.
So, that's where my story got to before and it's time for an update.
On Sat, a mate asked me to go out and I thought 'yeah, that's what I need, to go have fun and try to forget Donna for a bit. I decided not to text Donna unless she sent one first. I had no intention of ignoring her, just not 'chasing' her, so to speak.
4 of us went out and Jon mentioned that an old friend (Melanie) was supposed to have come to Stoke for a party and might be out afterwards. Come about 11pm, in walked Mel with her mate Sarah. Both of them wearing burlesque style corsets and Sarah had a ra-ra skirt on. As Mel caught up with Jon, I sat talking to Sarah. She couldn't be more different to Donna but we hit it off pretty quickly. She had a lot of attitude about her, not in an arrogant kind of way but in a cocky, piss-taking way. I was on form though, any attempt she made to take the piss, I turned it around. All in good humour, not being nasty or anything, just playful banter.
As the night went on, she was really growing on me. Unlike last time, I kept up the cocky persona and we just had fun, dancing to pretty much anything and generally f***in about.
Well by the end of the night, I'd cracked her. The attitude had dropped and she was opening up to me and admitted that she really likes me. By this time, Mel had already booked a taxi for them to go back to their hotel (Sarah lives in Leicester) so I wasn't going to push matters. She asked if we could swap numbers and said that she really wants to see me again.
The entire time, I completely forgot about Donna and actually felt quite guilty about it, stupid as that sounds!
I decided to play it cool and not text Sarah the next day but sure enough, I got a text from her during the match, saying how much she enjoyed the night and saying she'll be here again at the end of next month, if not before!
So my mental state has changed a bit. I still like Donna and think we could be excellent together but now I have a very welcome distraction and it's helped clear my head. I guess it's also made me feel better about myself again. Sarah's hot and with that confident attitude she has, it would have been easy for me to bottle it and go quiet but to see her change through the night from cocky to letting go and having fun to then opening up was great and even better knowing I'd done it.
Whatever happens happens now, I'm not going to screw my head up again by over analysing things.
I've had an amazing weekend and for now, my head is in a far better place!
(Although my thumbs hurt after typing all that on my phone)
