http://www.liverpoolfc.tv/news/drilldown/NG160956080818-1319.htmOf course, the return of football is what we desperately desire. We cannot exist without it. But it can feel like a double-edged sword; can't live without it, but can't happily live with it at times, either. It often attracts and repels in equal measure. It makes us smile, but then rids us of our fingernails and turns our hair grey.
However, if the dark days of mid-season can end up resembling the humdrum routine of a bad marriage, with regrets of missed opportunities and little to look forward to, the opening day is the time when the possibilities are endless. This, we tell ourselves, could be the one.
With minutes to go until the moment of truth, the questions continue: Am I feeling strong enough for the rejection, the despair and, at times, the downright humiliation? Will I be let down? Will they turn up? Stress levels rise, nerves jangle, saliva fills the mouth and, in my case, the last few hairs ease themselves from my scalp like the pine needles from a Christmas tree at New Year.
But we never shy away, do we? The moment comes, and whether in person or purely in spirit, we are there.
And while far from pretty, and not exactly enjoyable – not to mention the 83 minutes of patient waiting to score – it wasn't that bad at all, was it? As the saying goes, I've seen worse...
At this stage it has to be noted that an away game to start each campaign is becoming a joke. It invariably means a home league game is postponed when the Champions League qualifier second-leg comes around, and Liverpool are already playing catch-up.
It's not an insurmountable hurdle, but it doesn't help, either. Nor does what I feel to be the nonsense of big players away at the Olympics. If top players must participate, have it as part of the football calendar, and cancel league games. Thankfully Ryan Babel is on his way back.
Ideally you want to go to noisy places like Sunderland after they've lost a few games, and also lost a bit of their inevitable early-season momentum; even if they'd won ten in a row, a place like that won't be bouncing more avidly than the opening day of the season. Home on the first day is the one fixture when every fan is in ebullient mood. In his five season openers, Rafa's yet to start at Anfield.
It wasn't the most attractive, but in the circumstances it was a very good result. After the Standard Liege game, when the Reds looked ragged and conceded some gilt-edged chances, it was a return to grinding out a result in a tough arena.
Make no mistake: Sunderland are much improved, having signed good Premiership players this summer, with several from Spurs, which can only help them settle more quickly. They played at a high tempo, but despite a bright start, Pepe Reina was barely worried.
The game came just three days after a frenetic Champions League qualifier on the continent, in which Alonso picked up a dead leg. It was played without Mascherano and Babel, two players who'd also be in everyone's strongest XI, and Lucas, another option in midfield.
And it was also played with Gerrard not 100% sharp after a stop-start pre-season, and the Spanish lads a little rusty having not played full matches since June. All of these things will be rectified in the coming weeks – players (from Beijing and injury) and sharpness will return.
In the circumstances, it was about keeping it tight, fighting for the right to play, and creating chances as the game wore on.
There was also Robbie Keane trying to fit into a new team pattern. His touches looked a little sharper, and I've no doubt he'll be an important player. But right now the spotlight is on him, and that can be tough. If the team starts winning games, he only has to keep contributing as part of the collective and then his own form, and goals, will come, as the pressure abates.
However, I do worry that the obsession with #19 is going to drive everyone insane this season.
I think it's crucial to not see the first bad result as an end to the title chances. But of course, I know that's exactly what will happen.
If Liverpool cannot afford the occasional slip-up in order to win the title, and even just one defeat will instantly doom the club to failure, then of course a 19th championship will be out of reach; because the pressure would be unbearable. And of course, that would mean whoever wins it is going to rack up 110 points, which isn't going to happen. All teams drop at least 20 points in a season. The key has to be to aim for a realistic nine or ten points out of every twelve.
I am already dreading the ‘game we should be winning to challenge for the title' mantra, trotted out after every slip-up as evidence of inferiority. It seems plenty of people would only exclude visits to Old Trafford, Stamford Bridge and the Emirates from that statement. And yet the other 35 games Liverpool ‘should be winning' would result in 105 points if that proved correct. Which is ludicrous.
The truth is that all champions drop ‘silly' points, or have bad days at the office, or experience those afternoons and evenings when the play is great but the luck doesn't flow.
Places like The Stadium of Light and Fratton Park are often ones where a draw will actually do nicely. And believe it or not, sometimes this season a draw will do nicely. If we accept that now, then it will stop the lunging from optimism to despair. While I expect Rafa to try and win every game, I am already prepared for those days when it just doesn't happen.
Last season both United and Chelsea started very slowly, dropping plenty of points. But they found consistency from autumn onwards, and that's what Liverpool have to do. It's not about winning it in the first few weeks – or losing it. And even then, United slipped up as the season progressed, such as when losing at Upton Park over Christmas.
This Liverpool side can get more than 80 points, but more than 90 would mean a big jump. So if anything it needs to be a case of continued steady improvement, rather than blitzing the field. Being behind other teams isn't a problem, so long as the gap is not substantial.
Key summer signing Robbie Keane also has to be given time adjust. He is a clever player with natural confidence, and understands the league. But he now has a big price tag and a lot of expectations to carry; too much, if I'm honest. While I'm confident he will help the team improve yet further, he doesn't deserve to be called ‘the final piece of the puzzle' or ‘the man to land the title'.

After every player moves, he has to grow into his new environment. At his previous club he will have built up his confidence and authority over a period of time; in some ways, a change of club puts him back at square one, with a reputation to rebuild in a new context. It's also about growing more comfortable with team-mates, the coaching staff and the tactics, and getting on a roll.
I am bracing myself for yet more ‘rotation' nonsense in the media, too. In recent seasons BenÃtez has rotated no more than Alex Ferguson, and has also kept a strong core, despite what others suggest. If fit, key players play over 90% of Liverpool's league matches.
On Sky's Sunday Supplement, there were further mentions of Torres being left out of two games last season; using the games as examples, when in fact they were the only examples. Without irony, the journalists also admitted ‘well, he can't play every game...', without enlightening us to which kind of games they can't play. Their point seemed to be that Portsmouth away and Birmingham at home, at a stage when the Reds were playing well, was not the time.
But I might ask, when is the time? When the Reds are struggling? Er, no. Or against the best opposition? Er, no. Or in the run-in to the season? Er, no. Or when Torres, who'd just played two internationals prior to the Portsmouth game, hasn't just had a gruelling schedule? Er, no.
Looked at like that, and with his form later in the season aided by not being overplayed initially, it was the best time to rest him; unfortunately, the results didn't work out. But that's not when the title was lost. And I still maintain a point at Portsmouth was a good result; it's the sum total United have achieved there in their last two visits.
So with the new season comes the old bugbears and irritants (and for some people, that includes me). Am I ready for it? Well, as much as I'll ever be.
And is this 'the one'? We'll see. But for a first date, you can't ask for much more.