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The Arkles / Re: The mental health thread
« Last post by FL Red on Today at 10:31:20 pm »How are you doing now? I hope things are improving for you mate.you
I need to do something. I dont want to go back on tablets but i feel totally ... lost. Almost empty inside.
My 8 year old son is all that keeps me going. He makes me proud. He makes me smile. But i basically spend most days in work and then the rest of the day/night in the spare room ... in silence. Thats my existence. I feel like there is just nothing left. No energy. No fight. No zest for life. Its been mentally and emotionally beaten out of me over the years. Now i just feel beaten down into silence. Its easier to just stay silent. Trying to get from one day to the next. I find it hard to be happy about anything. I feel sad all the time. It is a deep level of depression. I understand that much. Its just all a battle. A battle thats neverending but yet feels like i cant win. I feel like im on the verge of a real breakdown now. Life is a struggle isnt it.
Tomorrow is another day. Just got to keep going. For my son, and my parents who worry about me all the time. I pretty much hide it from them. But my son, he is starting to notice. He just comes in , hugs me and tells me he loves me. Asks me to tuck him in. Thats the best parts of my day.
Dude, football disagreements and all else aside. Please seek help!!!! You have a responsibility to your son as I’m sure you are aware to be the best version of yourself that you can be. No one should have to suffer in silence. I’m not sure what the protocol is outside the states as far as mental health hotlines and such but what you are describing is extreme depression and shouldn’t be brushed aside or taken lightly but you most likely won’t be able to kick it on your own. I don’t know you from Adam but you deserve to not have to deal with this sort of mental anguish, I pray you can get the help you need and deserve for you and your son’s sake.
