Money (or lack of) has me feeling down. I said I wasn't going to talk about it because people were discussing bigger problems such as health issues but as we've gone onto other subjects, I'll open up a bit.
To give you a bit of background, I was living with my ex up until Oct and when we split I had nowhere to go. I moved in with a mate and his ex until January but they were having 'problems' themselves (they eventually split) so I had to try to find somewhere. I started renting a 2 bedroom house, nothing fancy. The idea was that there would be a room for me and the other room would be for my kids when they come to visit at the weekends. I've mentioned it before but that was only possible thanks to an extremely generous forum member who helped me out with a deposit and first months rent.
I haven't exactly led a lavish lifestyle since then and for weeks I didn't even have anything to sit on. I spent most evenings sat on the floor or lying on an airbed reading books. Even now I have a settee and a telly, a proper bed and some kitchen appliances (a kettle was the most essential purchase) but still don't have much else and live on pasta mixed with soup (cheaper than sauce), baked potatoes or toast. I shower instead of bathing, never have the heating on and only switch things on when I need them (although I have my retro 90s, stuttering second hand pc on to talk to you lot) to keep fuel bills down.
I wouldn't mind any of that if it meant I could afford to live but it's becoming pretty obvious that I can't. I'm going to have to take my car off the road at the end of the month because Tax, MOT and insurance are all up and I can't afford any of them, meaning I will have to find another way to get to my kids (50+ miles away) and cycle 13 miles a day to work and back. I owe for council tax and water and other debts (such as credit cards) are just going to have to wait.
The only solution, it seems, is to find someone to share the rent with, losing the room that I'd reserved for my kids. It's the last thing I wanted to do but it's either that or lose the house. I've already asked a mate about it and he's interested but couldn't move in for a couple of months yet anyway because he's on a temporary contract at work until then. As for meeting girls, that pretty much knackers that one as well!
So although I'm in relatively good health (aside from a cough) and fully appreciate things could be worse, I'm not really enjoying life at the minute.
They say money can't buy happiness. 'They' obviously have money.
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