I’ve always been able to keep a pretty good handle on things in life, managed to find ways to cope with things. But my other half has just left me and to be perfectly honest - I’m close to spiralling down a very dark path. She was my everything.
Hey mate. I've been in a similar position. My missus went off with someone else. No kids at that time fortunately.
But I spiralled down a very dark path with landed me in hospital .... and another hospital which I wasn't allowed to leave. I still can't get life insurance. I drank ... and it was awful. Nowadays I'm married and have a little boy. But at times I still suffer.
Never beat yourself over it. Please talk to friends, family ... or someone who is trained to help with these things. Because I promise you that things will get better and there are people out there who do care about you and want you to be OK.
Something like this isn't an easy road. There's good days ... and alot of bad. Set yourself little targets ... go for a walk ... get yourself a new album. Rediscover something you used to love. I promise you will get there. Don't suffer alone ...
My dog bless her was there in some of my darkest times. As it happens she's just short of 17 now and she's quite unwell. I was taking her the vets yesterday really worried and we looked at eachother and I remembered those times when I was a mess and she never left my side. There's nothing better than knowing you got through it. People will help you mate. Don't shut yourself off.
Look after yourself mate.