I know but I still regret not insisting that my mum had got medical treatment earlier she was so stubborn but wouldn't give in until it was too late.
The last 4 years I have probably overconpensated by fussing over him and seeing a proud man become a shell of what he was is heartbreakkng. I am realistic and know his time is limited but the bond I got with him since my mum died is so much stronger than it was before. The last few months working from home have been the best I have had for a few years. I know he is in the best place but I want his last few years to have some quality of living. I don't want to wallow in self pity but the last month or so worrying about him, work and trying to keep myself going has been hard. I think I need help before I just go under.
The pandemic has made it worse as I really have little idea what's happening
You need to accept the things you can never change re Mum.
How many people say ... "If Only "?
Everyone does .
Many of us are going down rabbit holes at the moment.
The pandemic has thrown everyone out of their established way of life (existence) and unless we adapt and change to those circumstances we are going to self destruct and make ourselves extinct like a dinosaur.
You must look after yourself first or you will go under and then you will be f**k all use to yourself ...or your Dad.
You must have heard the question about who uses the oxygen mask on a plane. You or your child.?
Try to ensure your spiritual ,mental and physical health are OK.
I said spiritual ... not religous. Live in the now. Not the past nor the future. The now.
Eat properly, sleep well and don't f**k your mind or body up with addictions to "escape".
If you need help reach out for it. Come out of the rabbit hole... all you will find is madness down there.
If any of this helps then PM me if you want.
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