I feel like last year tested every single one of our mental health, and I truly hope everyone is able to seek the help they deserve when it’s so hard at the minute to get it, and hopefully there’s better times ahead.
For the last couple months mines been pretty much in the dump, I developed a problem with my ear, basically my right one always has this full sensation, more so when I eat and whenever I burp, yawn or swallow I get this opening up sensation in it, but the worst of it is the tinnitus like symptom I have with it, basically I have a constant staticy saw noise 24/7, which increases with ANY sound, including my breathing, which means since early November I’ve been unable to do anything comfortably, can’t watch TV, go outside, speak to people, basically do anything including sound without exaggerating it, for the first month I was sleeping in 20 minute bursts 5 times a night and by December my mind was gone, I was spending most days sat on my sofa alone in a silent room to not exaggerate it, just waiting for the ENT to get back to me.
Thankfully I’ve managed to ignore it somewhat, it’s still always there, aswell as the physical sensations in my ear, but I’m managing to watch stuff on my phone, TV even at 5% is still a bit too annoying, and I managed to spend time with my family at Christmas and just soldiered through the sound, and same with going shopping, I can manage it even though it sounds like I can hear the electricity running through the store when I go, and my thankfully and most importantly my sleep has improved a bit which I think was the biggest help... but yeah, mentally, I’m at like 25% of how good I was feeling just before it came on... and then to learn that my ENT referral has vanished from their system and I’ve just been sat around waiting, knocked me back a bit the other day...
I just really hope they can figure what’s up, because I’m very careful with sounds so can’t see it being noise damage, I’m 29 and never been to a gig, concert or even a night club, I don’t wear in ear headphones or listen to music when I’m out and about and my tv is never over 15%... but the fact I have physical symptoms gives me hope there is something going on in there that can be sorted, and at least reduce it.
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